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She was tall (even taller than myself, slightly.), slender, hazel eyes, long black hair.... She was everything I really wanted in a girlfriend. - Cool, down to earth, tomboyish, yet very lady-like at the same time.... And we had just about everything in common. I should start from around the beginning.
Katie was 15 when me and her started talking; it was late August in the year 2000, and to me she was a welcome change to most girls that I had known, who really didn't like me at all. She was different. - She understood me and reassured me that I wasn't as bad as others made me out to be. So we talked more and more, and by the end of 2000, I admitted to feeling strongly about her... and I thought my heart would burst when she said she felt the same way towards me.... It happened on New Years Day, and it was unforgettable... It was great, except for one thing. - While I was living in Miami, she was all the way up in Tallahassee, Florida. But we didn't care, we reasoned that we'd find a way to be together after college.
From that point on, I felt high as a kite. She meant everything to me, and she told me that I was different from most guys; that I wasn't some materialistic braggart who looked at women as sex objects or slaves. I couldn't believe I was that special because of that, but I didn't deny it either. We became real close, and the more we talked, the more we discovered that we had very much in common as far as preferences in music, politics, art, and things go. She told me she had a thing for guitar players, and that she was teaching herself guitar too.
So I became her unofficial guitar teacher, giving her easy songs to learn and all of those things. I would even play some snippits, from songs that I was learning, over the microphone in a voice chat for her. She loved hearing me play, and I loved hearing her voice telling me that she thought I was really good.
Then came the days I'll never forget, we decided to meet up in Orlando. I pulled some money together to get her some gifts, and then put them in the back of our family minivan. When we did meet for the first time, it was wonderful. She was, indeed, taller than myself, but she was exactly how I pictured her too... She was wonderfully pretty, and smiling the whole time. I swore I had died and gone to heaven, and I was meeting my guardian angel, face to face for the first time.
We went to see Pearl Harbor together, and we both agreed, "Too much kissing, for a war movie." Anyways, after that I gave her my gift. - The Offspring's "Smash" album which, come to find out, she already had, but she enjoyed having one for her car. All was well, then! *phew.* So then, after that, we went back to my Grandparent's house, and I spent the rest of the evening with her, and for the first time in my life, I felt God really did bless me with all I would ever need to be happy in life. We cuddled, held hands, nestled up against each other, and just had a wonderful time being close.
It ended abruptly when she had to go back to her hotel, where her folks were. So we planned for her to come down for my graduation party, and even see our band perform live. She said I was great on guitar (and vocals for the last song, since I wanted to do a song with me singing and playing), and that she was really proud of me, and after our band was through playing, dances started, and we decided to give it a shot and get out on the dance floor. We had fun, with the fast songs and the slow songs.
The day after that, we went snorkelling together in the Florida Keys. We spent the night at a hotel, so that we could get to the docks on time... More happy moments were shared, and in the morning we got up and had a good time exploring the reefs together. Then the trip was over, and with me and her begging our moms for permission, Katie and her mom stayed at our house for one night...
I can honestly say that it was one of the best moments I have ever had in my entire life. Katie was tired, so I told her she could rest awhile in my bed... Of course, I was tired too so I took that as a chance to sneak into bed with her, and wrap my arms around her. We laid there for awhile, and eventually... Wow, we shared our first kiss, and I felt more alive than any other time in my whole life. I could tell she felt the same way, and we spent our time talking, joking, making each other laugh, and having little tickle fights.... She always beat me; I'm very ticklish, but she didn't seem to hold that against me. *smiles.*
Anyways, with a heavy heart I eventually had to say goodbye to her, and I was so sad that I cried myself to sleep as soon as she left. I was so mad that we were so far apart, and I was so mad we couldn't be like normal couples... However, I felt so much happier when she called me later that day, from where she was staying the night, and we talked all about how much fun we had and how much we missed each other.
I was sad when I realized that I had to go away for an entire month, to Mexico for a missionary trip. I was going to miss her so badly, and I wouldn't be able to talk to her until I got back... But things were still looking up. While in Mexico, I found some of the most beautiful jewelery that I had ever seen. - A ring, with a deep blue stone which beamed with a sense of richness and deepness when it reflected sunlight, a silver necklace with a rose pendant, studded with red gems, and another silver necklace with an emerald pendant, which shimmered in the light. I got back home, and let her know how the trip went, also mentioning that I got her a few things while I was away. I sent her a package with the gifts, and she let me know when she recieved them.... I was regretting not being able to see her open it personally, but she said that it was very sweet of me and that she loved me very much for it. I was excited, and I told her I loved her more than she could ever know... Then the most romantic thing happened, as she told me the she was putting on the ring, "Oh my gosh, Mike. I just realized that I've slipped your ring onto the finger that my wedding ring will go on. I wasn't aware of that until after I did, but..." I swear, if I could have married her then, I would have. We always talked about what spending a future together would be like... And for awhile, it seemed as if that would come to pass...
*sniff, tears* Why I cry, you ask? Oh, if only you knew the real truth. I'll get to that, in a second.
After going so long without seeing each other, I was psyched up for the chance to see her again at the end of the year in Christmas. This time, I would head up to where she lived, and stay an entire week and a half with her at her house.
Never in all my life did I feel so anxious. I wanted to do all of the things me and her talked about, and I wanted to do all sorts of little things with her, that we were never able to when we were apart. Me and my mom took a trip up to a halfway point, just a bit outside of Orlando, and we agreed that we'd meet there and I'd hop in Katie's ride and go home with them. We were overjoyed to see each other again, and for the next 2 hours I was enjoying a scenic car ride with the girl that I treasured more than anything in the world. I gave her two of the christmas presents that I got for her back in Miami. - Both VAST albums, each with a little poem that I had placed inside the diamond case, prior to wrapping them up.
I was set to spend entire evenings alone with her, take her for walks in the park, go out to toystores and have the most fun playing around with the things we found in there.... But 2 days into the trip, I came down with a horrible flu, because of the weather most likely. So I had to spend the remainder of my vacation taking it easy, and having to cancel many of our plans... We still stayed home and spent a lot of time together, though, and I really enjoyed her company. We still laughed, hugged, kissed, had tickle fights when I was feeling up to it.... But it was all hard to do for me, nonetheless.
On Christmas Day, I watched her as she opened up her gifts... Well kind of, because when I woke up I was running a fever and had to skip out on the beginning parts of the gift openings.... But when I made an attempt to get up and go to where her and her family were gathered, I saw she was blessed with many wonderful things. CDs, all of which were really liked be me, and of respectable bands no less. A few trinkets, and the one thing I noticed out of all of them, a brand new Yamaha electric guitar, with a 50 watt amp to go with it... Plus, guitar method books, tablatures, and music magazines. For the first time, I openly admitted in a joking manner, "It's pretty bad when your girlfriend has a nicer guitar and amp than you do....." But I smiled and gave her a big hug, and wished her a Merry Christmas all the same. I was happy for her, that she was able to get such a cool present like that.
Later on, that evening, she came up to me with a small box... I took it gently from her hands, as she smiled and looked on. I opened it up, and saw a ring, and it caught my eye and made me feel so incredibly happy. It was a silver ring, with markings all around the outside. It looked perfect, and on the inside of the band was an inscription: Always and Forever - Mike + Katie. All I could do was give her a hug and a kiss and a thank you, for being so wonderful to me for an entire year. We smiled, and spent the rest of the evening cuddling and talking.
Anyways, we spent the next few days after that by just taking it easy, and we went out to the movies and spent the rest of the day out of the house, since I was getting cooped up. We got home late and after a second of relaxing, I was feeling rather cold. So, I'm not sure who suggested it first (I think it was me.), we decided we'd soak our feet in a tub of hot water. It was very relaxing, and it made the whole evening worthwhile. On New Years Eve, we cuddled next to each other as we watched the ball drop, and when it did we shared our anniversary kiss.. It felt so good to have made it this far, and with everything going perfect for us, it seemed.
Eventually, it was over. My vacation was spent, and it was time to go home. Oddly enough, I felt sad, but not as depressed as I thought I was going to feel. I was going to miss her bad, but we planned for another visit to each other fairly soon, since I became sick and all. I was thankful for that much.
Anyways, after I get home I begin my 2nd year of junior college. I'm happy, and satisfied that all was going well... Or so I thought.
Katie had to go into the clinic and get some tests done, and I wished her the best results possible. I was aware that Katie suffered from a couple of deficiencies, and I was worried about her. She never came back online for more than a week.
I was worried that something had happened to her, and I was checking my inboxes and everything I could for some sign of her, but nothing came up. I was feeling pretty low, but then, on the 21st of January of 2002, I finally recieve a reply from her! - She was home, and well! I couldn't wait to talk to her again, and even though I was at college at the time when I read it, I didn't care. I was hurrying home as fast as I could! I was online in the blink of an eye, and finding her available, I messaged her and let her know I was there. We said our usual hellos, and I-miss-yous, and talked about how we were feeling about not being able to see each other. I told her I felt bad, because we really never got a chance to talk. She understood, and told me that everything would be ok, and even though it wouldn't be right away, she'd have to go back to the clinic eventually; I was ok with that.
Then she told me that she was feeling rather down. I asked her what the problem was, and she said she couldn't tell me because she was afraid it might hurt me bad. To my knowledge, it wasn't anything extreme, so I ventured to say, "I don't care what it is, Katie. Just tell me, I want to help you feel better!"
Then, in a horrible nightmare-like trance, I stared at the screen as she gave me her reply: I don't love you as much as I used to, anymore. I'm sorry, Mike... I wish I could do something about it, but I can't... I think, and I know this is going to hurt you, I'm going to have to let you go."
I was crushed, I was beaten, I was destroyed, I felt sick, I felt dizzy.... I felt rejected, unloved, uncared for, unappreciated, left for dead; you name anything negative, and chances are I was feeling all of that.
She said she was sorry for hurting me, and that she had no idea why she felt this way... I got angry, I told her she was insensitive, and just plain mean... My previous opinions of her were flattened, and were replaced by new views and attitudes towards her.
After that, she rarely got online anymore, and here I sat wishing she would come back and rethink things over... But each night, I was left with a sore back and sore eyes from waiting for her to show up, even though she never did.
I told all of my net buddies, on www.lyrics.com about what was happening, and they sympathized with me a whole lot. Over the course of several days, I watched as my attitudes changed from depressed and confused, to angry and wanting restitution.... But I could never talk to Katie over IM, and thus E-mails were our only means of communication.... Sometimes, she wouldn't even write back.
That's when I blew my cool, and sent her a very menacingly sounding E-mail, which basically told her to, "Go get hit by a train, and get out of my life."
She took serious offense to that, and in the end I felt horrible because of what I had done... I had taken it way too far out of proportion, and screwed up all hope of maintaining a friendship, at the least. She signed on one last time, to ask me why I would do such a thing, and I couldn't even respond. - I knew I had done it, and it was all my fault that I didn't stop myself from telling her those awful things....
We've never talked since that day on February 21st, 2002..... And now, despite the fact that I'm capable of moving on, I know there will never be another girl like her, and I'm afraid... afraid no one will be good enough to take her place in my life. After having something so perfect, my standards seem way too high for any girl to tackle...
Why, God? Why would you make me suffer through something this horrible? What good was this, when in the end it caused me so much heartache?.... Now she's with someone else, and has moved on from me... Why did this even happen in the first place? Why did we even meet each other, only to have our friendship be destroyed?
Why?....
Why did this happen, Katie? Was there something that I did wrong? Somewhere I messed up, along the way? While we were together, you wrote this entire page about me... What made you change your mind?
MY Most Unforgettable Person
Who could be the most unforgettable person in my life? If you think about it, that title is saying a lotit speaks of someone who plays or had played an important role in your life, someone who really affected you. Well in my case, I had no problems naming my most unforgettable person: my boyfriend, Mike. Hes 18, and living in Miami, Florida while Im stuck here in Tallahassee. Same state, but the distance between the two cities is large enough. The wonderful thing is, is even though hes far away from me, hes been able to touch my heart like no one else Ive known.
He stands around 58 or 59, with gorgeous blue/green eyes that have me lost in their depths every time I look into them. And to go along with those eyes of his, he has long hair that he usually wears up in a ponytail Ive always had some sort of weakness for long hair. He wears what hes comfortable in, not worrying about the latest styles or trends. Hes himself, and thats one of those things I love so much about him.
It all began in August 2000, when I replied to a post Mike had put on an Internet forum. The forum was there for a virtual high school I was taking classes from at the time. At first, we communicated through emails, but eventually it grew into something much more. We began talking through instant messages, staying up late into the night while we spoke about our lives, music, our interests, and talents. As time went on, we began to see all the things we had in common. We even discovered that we spoke in much the same style.
On New Years Day of 2001, Mike and I finally confessed our love to each other. Its a day in my memory that Ill never forget. I felt as if I was on top of the world. But it didnt stop there. Our love continued to grow, and Mike still manages to make me feel like I can reach the stars.
This summer, we were able to spend some time with each other. I traveled down to Miami so I could go to his graduation party, and we ended up going to the Florida Keys for the weekend. Talk about fun I was enjoying my time with Mike so much. I never wanted it to end. I felt as if this was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and I still do. Hes told me he feels the same way. I hold the belief that were going to go through our lives together.
Earlier, I was reading something Mike wrote. It was a little story about when we were snorkeling in the Keys, and I swam straight into a buoy. I had totally forgotten about that. What happened was I wasnt looking where I was going, and the next thing I know, I hit my head. Of course it didnt hurt, but I surprised myself and looked up to see if anyone had seen me. There was Mike laughing at me He was trying to keep a straight face, but couldnt. I couldnt help smiling back, knowing that he had intentionally not told me about the buoy, only so he could see what happened. Who could blame him? I would of done the same thing Were very much alike, him and I.
I might have forgotten about the buoy incident, but Ill never forget this story about a bird we saw perched on a post while the boat we were on was heading back to land. I hadnt been feeling well, and Mike was there the whole time, insisting that hed rather stay with me than snorkel some more. It was while I was resting against him when he happened to notice the bird, pointing it out and drawing my attention to it. Other people noticed too, and as soon as everyone turned their heads, the bird turned around and went to the bathroom, aiming it towards the boat. I still laugh when I think about it. Mike didnt think it was all that great, but I laughed so hard I was crying. For eternity and a day, he will be able to make me laugh.
And theres something about him that immediately sets me at ease. Just his presence can make me feel comfortable and relaxed. He doesnt need to say anything, but when he does, it makes me feel like Im meltingall because his voice is so incredibly soothing.
Mike can always cheer me up when Im down. I can tell him whats bothering me, and hell listen and immediately know what to say to make me feel better. Hes the one who turned me around and set me on a different path than the one I was headed down: a path that would have eventually led to my destruction. He opened up my eyes, and made me realize that its possible for me to be loved. Hes made me more confident, always telling me what he sees in me. I can never thank him enough for what hes done
During those late night talks Ive had with him, Ive come to know Mike more and more. Were able to trust each other, and tell one another anything thats on our minds. Ive become very close to him, and would give him the world if I could.
To tell you the truth, I feel sorry for anyone whos never known Mike. Hes an amazing individual. I feel even worse for the people who HAVE met him, but were blind and didnt realize how special he truly is. Theres no one else like him, and I consider myself the luckiest girl in the world because out of all the girls out there, he gave me his love - a priceless treasure.
 How did you go from that, to not having anymore love for me like we once did? How? If you look at what I wrote to you, would you not find that I felt the exact same way?
I would have to say that my unforgettable person would have to be my girlfriend, Katie. She's 16 years old and she was born in Jacksonville, Florida. She's the youngest of her family. She has one older brother, plus her two parents. She grew up in Tallahassee though, and she currently goes to High School there. She has a couple of friends. Some of her friends either moved away or stopped keeping in touch. However, she has managed to stay friends with a few.
She's a casual dresser, with a casual style. She has a variety of facial expressions. Happy, serious, sarcasm, and concern. But most of the time, she's happy. Her teeth are perfectly straight and are pearly white. She's thin. She has long brown hair. Her eyes are brown colored, with green and gold specks which give off a hazel color and they shine whenever she's speaking in a sincere expression. Her complexion is clear and her skin is fair. Her gestures reflect her calm and composed attitude. She has an attitude which indicates a strong will, and a gentle character. The way she walks is not anything remarkable, but it suits her. She smells very nice too.
We've been together since the very beginning of this year. We confessed our love for each other on New Years Day. Of course, we didn't actually come to know each other until August in the year 2000. Up till then, I was really hoping for someone like her. Most of my friends had moved away and I wasn't having much luck finding new ones. I was posting things on a forum which was for the students of this online school system, and I was looking for people to write to. Katie was the first to reply.
Eventually, we grew to be more than just friends and we decided to meet up. To me, she is the best friend I could ever have and an even better girlfriend. I love everything about her. From the way she smiles, to the way she looks at me. She's been there for me when I felt as if no one else ever was. I didn't think I would find anyone like her, but I guess I was wrong. I find her to be a very spontaneous person and she does not really plan ahead for anything. She is carefree and just likes to live in the moment.
Me and her would have these really long conversations that lasted forever. We'd talk about so many different things. We'd talk about movies, news, world issues, music... Gosh, there really wasn't a limit to what we did talk about. I remember we spent the whole night talking about what we went through when we hadn't met each other. It was as if we had missed out on so many things about each other and we had to tell each other about it. Just the way she made me feel was so wonderful. She was willing to listen to me, and I had the chance to tell here about how I felt.
She's one of those people who you can talk to for hours on end and never get bored. She always has something witty to say and is never in short supply of funny sayings and comments. Most of the time, she's sarcastic by nature. One time I was talking to her when we were still just friends and weren't dating. I said to her, "Don't you just hate it whenever you're up late at night and you're stumbling around in the dark?" She'd reply, "Of course I do! Running into walls are the best! Not that it's ever happened to ME though, but still!" I had to laugh at this.
She is so incredibly friendly and understanding. She never buys into trends and is always honest. She never bickers with me, she never brings me down, and she never tries to change me. She loves me for me, and I think that it's rare you find a girl who is that devoted to you. I've said to her, "You know the reason why I love you, right?" She'd say, "I don't know, but if it's along the lines of why I love you, then I'm way ahead of you! Hehe!" Then I'd say, "Well, it's because you're you. You don't need to be someone else. You're so smart, friendly, wonderful...." Then she'd reply, "Aw... Thank you. And you're so intelligent, mature, and funny! How could I not love you for that?" I'd be speechless, but it wouldn't matter.
I remember this one time when she was able to go to my graduation party. She always told me that she wanted to see me and my band play, and I'm sure it had to be an exciting time for her. She told me that she thought I did just great and she really enjoyed the show. We were also able to spend an entire weekend in the Keys. We had so much fun just snorkeling and being together. One funny thing was that while she was swimming, she didn't know that she was rapidly approaching a rubber buoy. Before I had a chance to tell her, her head hit it and she looked around wiht an expression of surprise and shock, and I couldn't help but laugh to myself. Later, she was like, "How come you didn't warn me about the buoy?" All I could do was shrug and say, "Well, I didn't see it in time...." She could tell I wasn't telling the truth. So I gave in and said, "Alright, well I thought it'd be kind of funny." She looked at me for a second and then laughed.
She was even able to spend the night at my house one time, and I just remember the wonder of being able to hold her close to me and whisper, "I love you" into her ear. She would whisper back, "I love you, too." Once we accidently fell asleep together and we were awakened by a door slamming. We were kind of scared, but when we saw each other, our fear was put to rest. Every now and then, I'd kiss her softly on the cheek. She'd blush and couldn't resist returning the favor. I'm not sure how much time we spent doing little things like that, but it had to be a least an hour or two.
There would be times when we were sad though. Mostly when we brought up struggles of the past. I would say, "Have you ever gotten the feeling that no one cared about you?" She would reply, "Yes, many times. It's a really horrible feeling. You feel as if you have no one to turn to." I said, "I know how you feel. I was like that at one point." Then she'd say, "It hurts to know you had to go through that. But we have each other now and everything is going to be fine." I would agree with her and she would smile.
She's not afraid to tell me that she wants to be with me for the rest of her life. I keep telling her that if she really is willing to do that, then I'm just as willing to commit to her. It's one of the many things that we talk about all night long. Even though it's still 2 years out of our way, we still never get tired of planning it and imagining what we're going to do for the future. She says to me, "I don't care how we get married. Just as long as we do and I can be with you for the rest of my life."
I had no idea I could mean that much to someone. She told me that if she hadn't come to known me, she might have fallen into drugs and depression. "If it wasn't for you, I'd be getting mixed up with the wrong people. I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't have you.", she has told me many times before. I'm glad I could save her from all of that. Now she's perfectly happy and isn't afraid to stand up for herself. She's confident now that she has me. Just like I'm confident now that I have her.
Oh, but I think the best thing about her is that she's a Christian. A child of God. And we will someday be in Heaven together and we won't be bothered by anything in this world again. We could concentrate on spending forever with each other and never ever be apart again. It's hard to understand, I know. But if someone knew her the way I do, they would see why I love her so much. And would understand why I think eternity just isn't enough time for me and her to be together.
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